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| Velitie | Apr 25 2012, 03:55 PM Post #226 |
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Neener Neener Neener
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I can't tell him to stay away from you, this isn't the welcome thread. In any case welcome, check out the spam thread, and I hope you don't leave... I'm lonely... |
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| ReptilePZ | Apr 25 2012, 03:57 PM Post #227 |
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Big Sweaty Moose Bleepers
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*facepalm* |
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| JoeShmoe | Apr 25 2012, 04:18 PM Post #228 |
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I Just Got Nommed
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| ReptilePZ | Apr 25 2012, 04:22 PM Post #229 |
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Big Sweaty Moose Bleepers
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Thank you. |
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| Dyna | Apr 25 2012, 04:54 PM Post #230 |
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Mist Could Not Pass
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...ah yes, face palm well deserved seeing as how 'introduce yourself' is right below the 'you' forum. I am known for making the worst first impressions by making a fool of myself right off the bat. Ah well, at least I got it over with. |
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| JoeShmoe | Apr 25 2012, 05:25 PM Post #231 |
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I Just Got Nommed
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Oh, don't worry about it
Edited by JoeShmoe, Apr 25 2012, 05:29 PM.
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| Tiennou | Apr 25 2012, 05:37 PM Post #232 |
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Chicka Bow!
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You make me laugh. Me like you. Me try be nice to you. But me don't promise you. Me welcome you to forums. |
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| Tiennou | Apr 25 2012, 10:26 PM Post #233 |
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Chicka Bow!
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Watching Sin streaming while being drunk is highly enjoyable. Right now, I feel like being nice and thank everyone on the forums for being who they are. I love being here and I would never want you to change. I'm currently listening to the music that made me decide to take a break from the forums the last time. And I don't know why I wanted to leave in the first place. This place is amazing. I know we don't share a lot of intimacy and we could never call each other as friends, and this usually scares me, because I don't know if I should build a relationship with any of you and end up disappointed because you have a life that is not worth the company of a stranger. But right now, I don't care. You are all my friends, from the most annoying Billbo to the most lovable Wry, through the relatively normal gamer that is Dave and the biggest troll that is Reptile. I've been thinking about why Sam buys games for everyone, wether it's because he feels like it's the only way he can be liked by us or if it's this pure generosity our world lacks so much. As you may know, today I've watched a French show that basically made me realize how fucked up our world is. And Sam is one of these persons that make me hope there are still people out there who are good, nice and lovable. I don't want him to give me 60$, I don't want him to buy me games. I like him for who he is and I will never change my mind on this. I'd like to say something about my argument with Pong. It was entirely my fault. I felt too ashamed and probably too proud to admit it, but I am sorry. I have said to Dave that a few people on the forums started to annoy me, and I didn't know if it was because they were really annoying or if it was because I was quitting smokes. I can name people if you want, and I will, but know that I don't feel this way anymore. Those people were Pongoff, Cerebz, Billbo and Sinovera. For some of them, I could bring reason of why I started to be annoyed by them, for others I had none. Cerebz and Sin didn't do anything to me. They didn't even talk to me, but for some reasons, I was angry at them. Billbo IS annoying. But it's to me not a bad thing. I like him and still consider him as a friend. And Pongoff because of his "GTFO" which I did take a bit too personnally and seriously. To all of these people, I am sorry. In France, elections are going on. The first round was for me a great defeat for my country, and I still feel ashamed by the results. The fact that the National Front (Front Nationale, in French) has managed to get 18 % of the votes and Sarkozy managed to get 27 % made me feel really really ashamed, the first one being utterly fascist and the second one being an utter asshole. Sarkozy did nothing for France. He helped his friends getting richer, while our people was fighting poverty. In 2010, he decided that retirement was too soon, he passed a law and you can now retire at 62. It's not that bad unless you consider that statistically, men die at 63 and women at 65 in France. In 2010, France was the most productive country in the world, at a big price. Salaries are bad and working conditions are mediocre. He improved national security and it is not rare to get searched for no reason in the street. Most of the demonstrations in France now usually end up in a beating by the police. This is what we call repression. Sarkozy stole money, got bribes, he was involved, and still is, in a lot of shadowy stuff. He made deals with drug barons for example. During most of his presidential time, he repressed gypsies for no reason. In 2010, France was on fire. A lot of people compared the riots to those of 1968 (we had a mini revolution in 68 basically). It was of course exaggerated, but when there are workers taking their boss in hostage after a mass lay-off, people burning cars in the street, etc, there IS a problem, which the president completely ignored. The same year, an American newspaper talking about the far-right parties (fascism) getting more popular in Europe used a photograph of Sarkozy as cover. Today, his entire party is leaving him because of his racist behavior. He announced that the National Front could be good for the republic. As of today, I hate my country, my culture, the French and my language. I want to go away as far as I can from France and want to never be a part of this nation ever again. This got me angry. And made me pissed off at everything that composed this world. I wanted to kill him. Kill that asshole who fucked up the entire country. And this is why I've been rather on edge lately. Pong was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. And this is my fault. I am sorry. When I called him an asshole, I didn't mean it. I had to evacuate that anger and Pong was there. I will never forgive myself for using him as a punching ball. I like him. And right now, my biggest fear is to get hated by any of you guys. I am sorry. France is not that bad, I guess. But the working conditions are just horrible. When I see my father having his back totally screwed up, not being able to sleep more than 4 hours per night, I want to say you can't expect him to work 12 more years. It's not humanly possible. As a matter of facts, I changed my plans for the future. I had a really accurate plan for studies. But now I realize all I really want is to stop speaking French at all and go live abroad. I just can't take the French anymore. We are the second worst nation in the world, the first being the USA. I'm currently looking for a professional formation abroad. I've always wanted to go to Canada, so obviously, if I find something there, I will do anything to get it. I don't think I care that much about what job I'm going to have. All I need is to meet people I love, make friends and find a nice person which I would fall in love with. I don't want to think about what job I'm going to have at all actually, what my future will be. Our future should not be influenced by work, but by the people we love. I want to help people. Anyone with any problem, I want to be there for them and help them out. Because right now the world needs someone to take care of its people. For years, I used people as an excuse of being a douchebag. People are selfish, ignorant and arrogant. I thought being the biggest douchebag would just mean being human. And I still think it's the case, but that's not what I want. People sometimes need a special someone to help them and I want to be that special someone. You may not know, but I used to be really nice. I know I'm good at helping people, because it used to be my routine. But in the end, I felt like I gave too much and received too little. I realized it was not about giving and receiving. When you help someone, you should not expect them to give you something in return. It was one of the first times I got angry at people and felt alone, as if I was the last nice person in the world. But today, I want to be the last nice person in the world. When I die, I want people to remember me as the greatest guy they ever met. That said, I don't really care about what people think about me after I'm dead, because I will be dead and will not know. But if it's the motivation I need to do good, I'll take it. Talking about death, something I've never told anyone because it is completely stupid. Since I was a kid, I've always thought I wouldn't live more than 20 years and it does eat me up a bit. When I was a kid, I felt invincible thanks to this. I thought "I'm gonna die at 20, so I can do anything and nothing will happen to me". But the more I approach this age, the more I felt uncomfortable, until being really anxious about it. I am now 20 and still alive, but I'm still not 21 and it scares the hell out of me. If I survive until May 7th, I will feel like achieving something. And hopefully moving on to something else, like living a decent life. I don't remember if I talked about my brother's IQ. Even if it doesn't mean a lot, IQ still does mean something. Mine is at 148. I still feel like the dumbest guy ever, because I think of every possible situation that could kill me or hurt me in any way. I plan my lies and my replies when I know I will be talking to people. But what the IQ doesn't measure is imagination. My imagination is way too developped. I live in another world - my world. If for a lot of people it may sound like paradise, it is not. My world is dark, cold and dangerous. If you ever listen to me playing the piano, you'll see that every single song, wether it's happy or sad, will always sound depressed when I play it. I have a very hard time expressing myself. Not only my feelings, but also my opinions about stuff. I rarely participate to debates because I know I will fail at explaining myself clearly and this is the reason why I never try to convince anyone to my opinion. One thing I am not good at, at all, is expressing myself in any way. Some people think I'm shy. I am not shy, I just don't know what to say and when I do, I don't know how to say it. So I just stay quiet. One thing I hate is having to take a side in a debate between groups of people. Beastman and Unfie were "debating" about something I don't even remember. And Beastman thought I was supporting him. I was not. And it made me feel bad about Unfie, I thought he was going to hate me for this. And another part of me couldn't say to Beastman clearly that I was not supporting him, because I was afraid that he would hate me for this too. I'm not good with people when it comes to deal with matters I am part of. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings and doing so eats me so much that I hate myself most of the time. Even for stuff that happened years ago. I, for example, still hate myself for what I did to my ex 4 years ago. I've hurt her and will never forgive myself for it. Most of my actions are results of a thinking process. Even smoking was a result. But since a few years, every thinking I've made ends up badly. Like tonight. I am drunk. The thought I had is that I have a better sleep after drinking alcohol. So I drank a glass. Sin was streaming and my feelings wanted me to keep watching instead of going the sleep. I listened to them while I shouldn't have. So I kept watching and felt like the alcohol didn't have any effect on me. My body probably got used to it a bit, as I tend to drink more than before now which is still not alarming because I can't be considered as an alcoholic. I served myself another glass. But slipped and poured way too much. I hate wasting so I drank it anyway. And I got a bit drunk. Just a little bit but it still messed my thinking and I just drank another one for the heck of it. I dislike being drunk as in sick and about to puke. But this feeling when you're slightly drunk is amazing. I just... stop thinking about everything. Same thing with weed. Right now, I'm feeling really really great. Oddly, when I'm drunk, I have no problem about expressing myself, I'm probably still unclear, but I don't mind it. As if I accepted expressing feelings is complicated. I have a hard time accepting the way things are. People are dying everyday of hunger, rich people are getting richer, while the poorest are getting poorer, etc. All of those little things which are so easy to solve, but people seem to not care at all. This is how the world is, and I just can't accept that. Not in the way that I will do anything to change it, but in the way that it is a desperate cause. People will never change. Their selfish, stupid and evil nature will always get the upper hand to their altruist, smart and kind smothered nature. There are exceptions, of course, but the countries that control the world are democraties. And democratie, unlike what the name implies, is not the power to the people, but the power to the majority. And exceptions are the minority. I am part of the minority. I can still yell at people, try to convince them, but it will never work. I don't accept that and to show it, I find myself in despair, waiting for a miracle. Because this is all I can do. I want to be part of the majority. I want to not care about my neighbor in pain. But you, guys, make me forget about all this. And I am very thankful for this. Whatever side I choose, whatever word I say, I will always love every one of you. |
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| Velitie | Apr 25 2012, 11:31 PM Post #234 |
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Since I'm bad at organizing my thoughts I'm going to put the paragraph that I'm referring to in a spam filter. Also I apologize for any spelling or grammatical errors that I happen to make as I'm quite tired. Spoiler: click to toggle What? Why can't we call each other friends? The dictionary definition of friend is 'a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.' I certainly have 'feelings of affection', in fact I like you personally more than anyone in my real life, and the same goes for most of the other people on this forum. I would hardly call you a stranger, I mean, it's true we've never spoken face to face, but I know a fair amount about your life and I get your personality from your posts alone, so there's no way I'd call you a stranger. Okay, so you mention Billbo, Wry, Dave, and Reptile... and not me... okay, that's fine, I'm not hurt or anything. *sniffles* Spoiler: click to toggle So we can add Sam to the list of mentionies... Well, I'm sure that you'll use my name eventually. Right? In any case I suppose it would be in bad taste to ask Sam for your sixty bucks wouldn't it? Honestly, I've wondered the same thing about Sam myself. I don't really have anything else to say on the subject, but I wanted to include this in my post for some reason. Spoiler: click to toggle So Pong, Cerebz, and Sin are added to the list... 'k... I think there will always be people that you'll dislike, the reason doesn't really matter. Personally I there's only one person that I hold an unrequited rage for, and that's emma. Why? don't got a clue, just something about her personality made me want to hurt her. I also wanted to strangle Billbo for a while, because of the gorilla, but I'm over that. On a side note I'm also terrified of Bob and I used to be scared of Sin and Monstar for a while. How does that fit into this post? No idea, just roll with it. Spoiler: click to toggle I don't know what a punching ball is, but I want one immediately. Come now Tien, do you really believe we could hate you? Spoiler: click to toggle In two years and one month I'll be eighteen, then we can move to Canada and live together. Deal? Spoiler: click to toggle I love you too, with only a little homo mixed in. And as a side note I can't help but notice that you didn't ever mention my name... not that I care... I mean, it's not like I'm not important to you... it's not... like... *sobs* Edited by bobtherocket, Apr 26 2012, 12:55 AM.
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| savepoints | Apr 26 2012, 12:45 AM Post #235 |
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Forum Hero
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I wub you french man <3 |
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| bobtherocket | Apr 26 2012, 12:55 AM Post #236 |
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COCKAMANCER
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wut y? |
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| Velitie | Apr 26 2012, 12:57 AM Post #237 |
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WHY THE HELL COULDN'T YOU JUST MAKE A NEW POST!?!?! WHY?!?! WHY WHY WHY?!?! *sigh* Seriously dude... what the fuck... I didn't make a single arrow to the knee joke... I didn't post manboobs... WHY DID YOU DELETE IT?!?! *sigh again* As for the reasoning behind my terrification, it mainly stems from the manboobs. I feel like I pissed you off. Oh, and your black. (Please don't ban me for my racist comment, it was meant as joke) EDIT: oh... you undeleted (fun fact, undeleted isn't a real word, and if you try to use spell check it turns it into undersexed... this is important information) it... never-mind then. Edited by Velitie, Apr 26 2012, 12:59 AM.
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| bobtherocket | Apr 26 2012, 12:58 AM Post #238 |
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COCKAMANCER
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I didn't delete it on purpose. I meant to quote, and I hit the wrong button. D: It's back now! PS: Manboobs didn't piss me off. Edited by bobtherocket, Apr 26 2012, 12:59 AM.
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| ReptilePZ | Apr 26 2012, 01:08 AM Post #239 |
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Big Sweaty Moose Bleepers
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Oh, my facepalm was aimed at Dave, not you. |
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| ReptilePZ | Apr 26 2012, 01:10 AM Post #240 |
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Big Sweaty Moose Bleepers
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That would be Ranger... |
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