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Topic Started: Jan 19 2012, 03:09 AM (12,651 Views)
Zyan
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beastman721
Sep 15 2015, 05:49 PM
Thanks Wry, unfortunately, i'm just not patient and frankly a little tired of asking myself what I don't have that every other guy seems to have. It is what it is, and it sucks tremendously.
me irl
 
beastman721
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And you know, I genuinely want to try and enjoy the moment but it's just hard. Work is stressful, I commute over 2 hours each way, work hard, and go to bed alone every night.

Yeah maybe someday it'll be different, but the here and now just plain sucks.
Edited by beastman721, Sep 15 2015, 07:58 PM.
 
LayzKem
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Life IS stressful. That's how life has been for years.
Let me tell you what you don't have but the other guys do (you already know it yourself too as you said) - patience and confidence. Being alone is no ones preferred choice, stop being so restless and wait, relax. You want the things you want NOW. You're not willing to work for it. Relationships take time to form and gel. Other times it won't work out no matter how hard you try and you won't get past the "co-worker" phase. Don't take your failures personally.

There will be ups and there will be downs. One day she notices you, another day she doesn't. Done. Finito. The end.
Edited by LayzKem, Sep 16 2015, 03:29 AM.
 
beastman721
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I get what you're saying but the last bit kinda depresses me. Look, it is what it is, I'm just trying to deal with it as best I can.
 
Monstarcookie
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I want babies but I got rid of my man......I'm already thinking "what the hell did I do with my life". It is what it is....
 
beastman721
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Everybody.... Hangin in there?

Lotta work stress for me, not much else.
 
thewryness
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Well, there is something. Not something I'm worrying severely about yet. :unsure: It has to do with work. For some time now the school board has toyed with the idea of making one of the middle schools in my division purely french immersion instead of the current dual track. This particular school is the one I work at. It comes up periodically but the board usually votes against it and the status quo is maintained.
The proposal came up again recently and the vibe is that the FI staff and students will move to a different school because my school is bursting at the seams and the early years FI schools are even worse. Portables are not a viable option. Meanwhile, nothing's been decided yet but the big vote comes at the beginning of October. If this goes through it will affect the 2016-2017 school year.
I have some seniority and I'm bilingual so I'll probably go with the French books and the FI staff and students to the new school. I'm just concerned that I may lose my 100% position, which is based on enrollment numbers. What should I do if I get bumped down to 75% instead. Financially I'm okay right now but losing those hours would be rough. The meeting with the community was for tonight. Of course, it all depends on the board and how they vote.
The enrollment projections look promising and even with the changeover there should be enough students to justify my 100% position. Still, it's something that's been on my mind since it was in the air last spring.
I'll keep you posted if you like. Thanks for yer time and have a great day. :)
 
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Best wishes for you wry. Hopefully everything works out to your advantage :)
 
Monstarcookie
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keep us posted Wry! Hate when these kinda things happen :(
 
thewryness
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It's going to be better for the kids - their French will be stronger in a pure FI school. And I'm not the only one that's thinking about this, of course. We have many FI teachers and they're all wondering if they'll have a job at the new school. This sort of reorganization's happened in other divisions and it's always a tense process.
I'll let you know how things are going in October. :)
 
beastman721
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Hope it all works out Wry! Just hope for the best and try not to stress too much.
 
beastman721
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Having a rough time lately. I've been going to therapy for quite some time but I just don't know if it's helping me, or if I can even be helped really. It's nice to have someone to vent to but I just can't seem to change my ways.

What really scares me is this: just 3 years ago when I had zero prospects in life I clung to this vision of myself and who I'd be in the future. Last week I took a look at myself in the mirror and thought "dude, this is it, this is what you dreamed you'd look like, you've got nice clothes, new glasses, braces off your teeth" and here I am, completely alone and absolutely miserable. It's like how far I've come means absolutely nothing because I have no one to share it with.

In another 3 years I could be really well off, bit If I've still never been loved back or held a girls hand it won't mean a thing and it scares me. I just don't know what to do, if I'm not good enough for anyone right now I'll never be. I've come such a long way but still feel worlds away from where I need to be.

God damnit.
 
thewryness
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You are more than good enough, Chris. Don't listen to the little sadists at the back of yer mind (aka yer fears and doubts). It took me until I was in my mid to late 20s before I even came close to having a relationship (both times went it nowhere but enuf about that :) ) and I found those relationships through activities and school. Have you looked into taking up a hobby or a sport?
She's out there, dude. You just need to ignore the little sadists. It's not easy but you can do it. :)
 
Unfie
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http://waitbutwhy.com/2013/11/life-is-picture-but-you-live-in-pixel.html

This reminds me kind of what you're talking about... it's very interesting and worth a look. Keep steadfast sir beastman
 
beastman721
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Thanks guys.... I'm trying to change how I think but it's just really difficult. I dunno it's just that feeling of like, not being wanted or not being pursued, it just kills me everyday. It's like what do I have the plague or something? Am I that undesirable?

I think I have a lot of attractive qualities, but no one else really seems to think so.

It sucks, maybe one day it changes. I don't know anymore.
 
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